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Hey Lex and fellow believers… (sorry this is going to be a long post) I just watched you weekly Q&A (because it’s the middle of the night where I live when you are doing them)… I really like them I learn a lot from them and the best part is that they make me evaluate my life and look very critical at myself… This Q&A you talked about how we should be better then the Farazees… Now this is something I think about a lot… And my conclusion is that I’m not better then them, probaly even worst… My heart and mind are full off sin… I want to give some examples…
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First example is that I am a fascist… I was raised that we should hate the jews (I hate to say it but is like a watered down version of Nazi Propaganda) because they killed our massiah… Now I realise that this was Gods plan all along… I was taught that the old testament was the religion of the jews and that they where wrong about everything and that Yeshua came to correct those wrongs… Now I am new to keeping Torah, and every time I hear what the Torah says ( like keeping the Sabbath ) I have this voice in my head that keeps on telling me that I should not keep that because it’s what the Jews do and just because the jews do it it is wrong… I have this strong resistance to everything that comes out of the old testament… My mind keeps telling me that is is wrong to try to keep the Torah…. I also have a very strong hate towards muslims… because they do not believe in Jesus and openly practice their Satan worship… I hate them because they hate us and because they want to destroy Christanity… ( just think about all the terror attacks all around the world at anyone who is not muslim) I also did some a little research in what the quran says and it is so the opposite of what I believe that I hate them… A practical example is that when I see a muslim(woman) I automaticly get filled with so much hate against them that I would just want to tear their headcovering off their heads and I think about beating them and even killing them for openly worshipping Satan like that…
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I am also very racist… I was brought up and taught that how do i say this as nice as possible… Dark skinned people where inferior and that they weren’t even conciderd to be people… As an axample when I was still a kid we went to a monkeyzoo, and when we where almost there we saw 2 dark skinned people just doing their thing walking in the streets, and my father said to us: look we aren’t even there and we can already see monkey’s just look over there… As all the thing I will confess I know that they are wrong but it’s like it’s imprented in my brain… This also is a belief that I want to change but it seems like my brain doen’t let me correct my wrong… now I do have to say that nowadays when I see a dark skinned person I still see them as less… however when I get to know them on a personal level those views will change but only about that particual person…
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The next thing is that I’m a liar and I lie all the time, now mostly they are so called “little white lies” but a lie is a lie, you can sugarcoat it but it’s still a lie… Now I have this neighbour that is a pathalogical liar and I hate him for lying all the time… ( because I think that he doesn’t respect me enough to be honest with me) But when I look hard at myself I am no hair better then him… (we should see the beam in our own eye and not just the splinter in another persons eye)… I do want to stop lying and it is getting a bit better because sometimes I catch myself thinking about how to respond to something with a lie and I recognise it and then I don’t say it or switch to tell the truth… but also a lot of the times I don’t realise it at all or I realise it after I already told the lie…
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Another sin I have is (18+) of the sexual nature… I am 37 right now and I am still single, I can’t seem to be able to get a woman to give me a chance or even go on a date… So also no wife as a result… Now I don’t know if this is Gods will for me to stay alone or if I’m just failing at life… Well because I don’t have a wife with whoem I can have sexual realtions with I’m very sexualy frustrated… Wich results in me watching a lot of porn and masturbating to try to satisfy those sexual needs… I know this is wrong but still I don’t seem to be able to stop doing that… When I see a woman wich I find sexual attractive my mind automaticly goes to thinking about how she looks naked and fantasising about having sexual encounters with them… I hate to say it but I also do this with woman who are already in a relationship or are even married… I know this is wrong and I want this to stop but it seems like it’s unvoluntairy response of my brain, I know it’s a sin but I don’t know how to stop doing it…
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Now these are just a couple of sins of mine… As I said I know these are sins and I want to stop it but I don’t know how to stop it… I want to live a more righteous life, but it’s like I am not able to rewire my brain, and I’m asking for advise on how to deal with that… I don’t know if there are people with simmilar problems who overcame them… I really really would like to know how they did it… I am gratefull that God, Yeshua and the Holy Spirit reveals to me on how I am sinning and letting me see the beam in my own eye… But the side effect is that I feel worst about myself then I already do due to my mental problems… Right now I know I’m a very bad sinner and that I’m not deserving of Gods love and I do not believe that I am wothy of beeing forgiven for any of my sins untill I change and no longer do them… I am gratefull that I found Lex his channel and found a sort of community on this site… I hope that there is someone here who can give me advise on how to proceed from recognising your flaws/sins to actively changing your heart and mind… Any advise is really apperiated… Sorry for the long post and the bad english6 Comments-
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Thank you David for your kind words… I do pray for God to change my way of thinking… I know it is not something that will change overnight, altough I wish it would… I want to love like Yeshua loved… I will try fasting more often… again Thanks for your reply… The reason why I post these thing is because I have no like-minded people in my suroundings… wich makes it really hard at times… so this is the place I turn to for support… so thank you for taking the time to read my post… That’s all I can hope for…
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Good day Martin, I’d like to also send you confirmation in what David replied to you about the power of prayer and fasting when it comes to overcoming sin. All bible citations are derived from the King James Version Bible so that you get proper context to what I am about to say.
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Before confirmation, I’d like to add that the fact that you were willing to confess your sin like that openly shows a humility that the Pharisees did not possess. This is a very good sign as both James and Peter say God resists the proud and gives grace to the humble ( James 4:6 | 1 Peter 5:5 ). Continue on to search yourself daily for how you can get closer to God as you are now.
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Now allow me to go point by point with you:
1) Remember that we all fall short because we have all sinned ( Romans 3:23 | 1 John 1:10 ) and so we ought have patience with one another ( 1 Timothy 6:11 ) and forgive the trespasses of one another through such patience ( Matthew 18:21-35 ) so that we also may be forgiven our trespasses ( Matthew 6:5-15 ). What you said here shows that you have a repentant heart and you do love God. Recall then that God loves all of us ( John 3:16-21 ) and wills that we should turn to a life of righteousness. Recall also that Jesus did not come to call the righteous but sinners to repentance ( Matthew 9:9-13 ). Recall lastly that Jesus, while being crucified on the cross by the Jews, petitioned God to forgive them ( Luke 23:34 ). Therefore have patience with Muslims and Jews who deny Christ as they know not what they do as we did not also when in darkness. Find forgiveness for them in your heart and endure with long suffering by following the example of Christ.
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2) When you start to consider that we all have souls that lack racial qualities it becomes easier to see people through that lens. It was commanded by Christ that we are to testify of Him and that repentance and remission of sins should be preached to all nations ( Luke 24:45-47 ). Christ values every soul regardless of what nation they are from. If this were not so then us former Gentiles would have no place in Heaven. As we were accepted so should we accept others.
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3) A proper fear of God will help with this one. Check out Lex’s video on YouTube: “Do You Fear God?” and combine that with what scripture says about a lying tongue. Let the law and might of God cause conviction in you that leads to righteousness ( Exodus 20:18-21 ).
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4) This is where the power of prayer and fasting comes in as there are some demons that are so ingrained in us that we need to do warfare with them in a more powerful nature ( Matthew 17:18-21 ). To share my testimony with you I also had this issue. It was not until I did a ten day water fast with prayer and reading scriptures that I started to see results. I lost about 20 lbs and had to battle irritation, depression, and anxiety as well, however, pushing through the temptation to eat food at all and making it through the ten day period on just water greatly boosted my self control. After prayer and fasting followed by deleting everything adult related this reduced my consumption of adult materials from daily to once every two weeks. After a few weeks I did a 24 day Daniel fast ( just fruits and vegetables ) with prayer. It’s been over a month since I have engaged in those activities. I hope that helps you as it has me. I will warn you: During the process you will have dreams about it which is a good sign that your subconscious is detoxing from adult materials. Do not cave in from those dreams. Set up safe guards by keeping electronic devices in another room until you gain full control. Resist the devil and he will flee from you ( James 4:7 ).
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If you want to get dates with women then you should seek the advice of a dating coach so you can better understand women. I’ve used Corey Wayne with success, however, you must be willing to disregard his teachings about fornication as that is sinful. He will at least give good advice in understanding women better to help you get dates. Be cautious in seeking women as not all follow God and women have been used in the bible to lead children of God into sin.
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In conclusion, seek God with fear and trembling, love God by obeying His commandments, rely on the sacrifice of Jesus Christ for forgiveness of you sins, forgive others as you were forgiven, pray and fast, study the scriptures, be patient with others, continue in humility, remember your own flaws as to not judge others, resist the devil that he will flee, and you will be okay. It takes time but you can do it!
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Thank you Tommy for your reply wich is so big, I really appeciate that you took a lot of your time to repond to me… I don’t have like-minded people in my surroundings so I feel alone a lot of the time, and I’m sorry to burden you guys at this site with my problems but it’s the only sort of community I have… and I don’t think you should just confess your sins to god but also to like-minded people who can give you wise advise as God often answers your prayers throu other people…
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thank you, I do realise that we are all sinners, however I feel that I am worst then most and therefore am not deserving the love of God… I do reasile that Muslims and jews are no differant then when my eyes where closed for the thruth of Gods word just a short while ago… When I pray I often also try to pray for non-christians that God may open their eyes too to the truth…
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yes I do know this and that’s why I feel so bad about it… God/Yeshua loves everybody nomatter the pigment in their skin, and so should I love everybody the same… I know the pigment doesn’t have anything to do with who will eventually enter the Kingdom of our Lord… I know that many of the people I see as “less” are better people then I will probaly ever be…
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I have seen that video, but I’ll watch it again… as I said I more and more realise when I want to tell a lie and I’m gratefull for that because I do believe it’s the Holy Spirit trying to give me a chance to become a more righeous person…
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Thank you for sharing your personal experiance, I have not been able to fast more then a day per time… I do have to confess that when you share my mind oatomaticly thinks that I am not able to fast for that long… but I do want to loose weight too… so fasting would benifit me greatly… I will try to fast more often and for longer periods of time… when I do and I feel like I cant I will log on to this site to re-read your experiance, in the hope it will strengten me and will give me the motivation to keep going…
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yes dating woman is hard… I haven’d met a singel person (man or woman) that believes like-minded… I often wonder wether I haven’d met my future wife yet, because that everywoman I know has no problems with pre-marrital sexual relations, and God knows that I am weak when it comes to that… So I wonder wether God doesn’t let woman date me because he knows that that will probaly make me sin…
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Yes Thank you your reply really helped… because I have no like-minded people in my surroundings I seek it on this site… I really apperiacte you for taken you time to read and respond to my cry-out for help, advise and support, mat God Bless you…
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Glad to be of help Martin. I know what it is like to feel isolated due to no one else really following the faith. It is pretty common. However, once you get in a place to where you talk with God the loneliness subsides. It is no burden at all to fellowship and uplift each other. Know that you do not suffer alone. Being children of God we suffer with Christ that we may be glorified together ( Romans 8:12-17 KJV ). If Christ be then in us we suffer together as one body to fulfill the second greatest commandment of loving your neighbor as you love yourself.
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The fact that you wish to sanctify yourself is the evidence that the Holy Spirit is moving in your life. God is no respecter of persons which means He does not put any one man above another: you are just as deserving of love as was Paul, the chief of sinners. You may find peace in reading Acts 10:34-35 ( KJV ) and 1 Timothy 1:12-20 ( KJV ) which confirms this. The fact that you feel remorse for sin is the evidence that God is writing His laws in your heart as to fulfill the prophecy of Ezekiel 36:25-28. This is not a bad thing, in fact, it is amazing because that means God is drawing to you as you draw towards Him. This lines up exactly with James 4:8 specifically and even James 4:1-12 ( KJV ) in it’s entirety.
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Have confidence that through your tribulation you will find God’s favor and blessing as you endure with long suffering. Right now it seems like He is allowing you to be tested. Once you pass the test and see what God has for you then I believe you will be ready to date. Until then I do believe you are correct He is protecting you from falling through a woman at the moment. Once you stand up with boldness and confidence in God I’m sure everything will fall into place. I’d get familiar with the scriptures. There are phone and computer applications you can use to search up words in the scripture that relate to whatever topic you want to learn about. If you ever have a question or doubt about something you should look up key words related to that topic. This will give you hope and promise as it is the knowledge of the truth which sets you free ( John 8:31-32 KJV ). I’ll pray wisdom, knowledge, discipline, freedom, and understanding to be imparted to you so that you may see what path you must follow to do God’s will and live in what He has for you. You are definitely worth it, brother, keep getting back up, pushing by taking action ( fasting is one example), and know that there are indeed others out there just like you that have your back.
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Thanks Brother Martin for your courage to share what you are dealing with in your spiritual battle. You know that sin is the transgression of the law and it is something we are all guilty of. I love logging into the Unlearn forum and reading posts from everyone as it inspires me to pray for others and bear other’s burdens.
Overcoming is a process. As long as you continue to fight back against the enemy, you know he will continue to tempt you and put stumbling blocks in your way. You will have good days and bad. Again, we all do. The good news is that Yah will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear.
What I have found helpful is that when I wake up in the morning , I cry out to the Holy Spirit listing the sins that I struggle with and ask for help resisting them throughout that day,
Fasting and prayer will also help strengthen you. Rejoice in your good days. Don’t let the enemy lead you into depression on your bad days. Fight the good fight brother.
Hopefully what I am writing you will make some sense and prove helpful. Also Martin, your English is better than you think it is so there’s never a need to apologize to anyone.
You are in my prayers my friend.